Hello friends, Meryl here!
This entry is pretty personal but I got the courage to post this. Most of the people I know don’t even know this but I want to start being transparent (+ my friends would always tell me in their palancas to share something about myself because I don’t tell things about me that much).
The summary of my reasons why I started blogging can be seen in my “About Me” but I still want to make a post about this. I started blogging because I’m more of expressing what I feel through my actions. I was never a fan of expressing my feelings through speaking (I am more comfortable in writing but I was never good in it… I hope to improve though!).
Uhm.. How? I’ll try to explain as much as I can.
As I grew up, I gave my effort in my classes by writing notes for my peers whenever they were absent, listing down what they need, and even the points we have to strengthen and fix. I had a fun time! And what made me happier was the fact that they appreciate it so much. I do not know why but I really do enjoy doing something for others even if it is a small thing.
I brought that habit as I grew up. Until now, I write tips for my friends whenever they need one. Most of them still ask me to make more so I continued. Then, I thought that I should share the different list of tips to everyone. I would like to do this as I grow up to help myself and others.
I have another reason but I want to keep this short (hopefully). I still have a hard time knowing myself. It IS odd because I have a (very very) difficult time knowing what I want, where I’m good at and such. I tend to choose something that would please the people around me but I want to build up the courage to say what I really want.
Okay I have one more. I mentioned above how I was never comfortable in talking, right? Well, whenever I have problems I usually just keep quiet and don’t tell anyone (as in 0). I don’t really want to bother them or anything since it is my problem and they have their own. Yeah, I should share my problems to others but I just can’t bring myself to do so. One way I have been venting was through writing (but I am NOT good at it). I always write down on my journal and make stories. I write my problems through the characters I am making and use the elements in my stories to aid those problems.
Four years ago, I made a social account wherein I can make stories with other people who have the same interest as me. We made stories together which was so fun. I really loved it. Although, after four years I stopped. I thought that I might invest my time too much in my story making.
I miss writing stories with them. It has been a year and sometimes I visit that account from time to time. I guess I need another way to say how I feel… So I thought that I can share my thoughts here.
I met great friends within those four years (I found four amazing friends. Right now, the first one is my best friend and the other three are now my close friends).
I may not be good at this still but I want to improve myself by doing this blog. I want to see myself grow and hopefully support and lend a hand to others to those who need it. Plus, I love to write down in my journal and I heard writing in blogs are quite great.I already had a few accounts in blogging like for example, my current tumblr account which is about studying, tips, motivational guide or simply my favorite things like cartoons, anime, photography, movie, current events– mainly what I enjoy but in my WordPress account, I would like to write about myself. I want to understand a little bit more.
As I own this blog, I hope that I will discover myself more since I have a hard time understanding myself.